Boudoir Photos

A very close friend of mine is a professional photographer.  Her work is pretty amazing.  Feel free to check her out at :Triple 8 Photography.  If you're in the Albuquerque area and interested in finding someone to take beautiful photos of you, she's your girl!

We were talking today about how many people ask her for boudoir photos.  She explained that many people now take boudoir pictures for their future husband-to-be.  They order albums that they present to their Fiance on the day of their wedding (talk about something to look forward too!).

Knowing that my DH is not reading my blog, I am considering getting some done for him.  Boudoir photos are not necessarily erotic (unless you want them to be...) but can be done very tastefully.  I think there might be some rule about how explicit materials are not allowed to be shipped to deployed soldiers... also, the mail is checked before your soldier receives his packages.  But I'm not worried about other soldiers looking through any photos that I send my DH as long as they like what they see =P

Seriously, though.  I think I'd like to get some photos and send them to my husband before he comes back from his deployment.... so that he has something to look forward to.  What does everyone else think?

Army Navy 2009

I will be updating soon... hopefully with good news.... never mind... that was depressing....

Silent Treatment

My DH and I are fighting.  I am giving him the silent treatment.  This means that my phone has been turned off and my email has not been read since Sunday.

There are many times when my DH has stated that I do not present him in the best light on this blog.  However, I think that there are times when I present him in as the world's best military husband.  This is not the reason why we're fighting.  

It is not my intention to put my DH down.  We are not the world's most perfect couple; we definitely have our share of marital problems.  My DH is deployed and this makes our relationship complicated in ways that are completely different from a civilian marriage.  So, please don't give me any advice or opinion unless you really understand my situation or empathize with what I am going through.  If not, I will rip your comment apart if I deem it even remotely stupid.

Now, I don't want comments that tell me that giving him the silent treatment is bad for our marriage.  Really, I'm a full time family therapist; I'm not stupid.  However, if I were to speak to him right now, I would not be able to do so in a calm or rational manner.

Perhaps when I am no longer angry (I have no idea when this will be) I will update more frequently.  Right now, I am extremely unhappy about being a military spouse (which makes my blog name even more significant).

I wish...

I wish I were married to a marine.

If I am wishing for anything, I wish were married to a civilian. Then I wouldn't have to deal with this s***** deployment.

My Divided Heart

During the end of our R&R time, I experience a wide array of emotions regarding my DH going back to the sandbox.  

My DH told me that he wanted to actually go back to Iraq during this time and this information really hit me hard.  My first thought was "WTF... he wants to leave me?  He's rather be in Iraq than be with me?" 

Now I don't know how many of you out there know this but I am SUPER FUN.  I can liven up a party with one smile and I am full of fun and interesting facts!  Alright, seriously.  Most people find me pretty entertaining (mostly because they laugh AT me).  

So I was really hurt by his words.  He explained that he wanted to go back because it was his duty, because of our financial goals, because he knew that he didn't have a choice.  But, I know that if he had a choice of staying home or going back to Iraq, he definitely would consider going back and finishing his tour.  

I feel as though I must reiterate this important fact.  I am REALLY fun be around.  I cook, I clean (neurotic clean), I watch ESPN (even though I seriously hate it), I try my hardest not to nag, I play video games, I am great in bed (oh you knew this was coming), etc... What would even make him consider finishing his tour!

Alright, I know I shouldn't take it personally but sometimes you can't help that way.  Being apart from one another is really difficult and I would really want my DH to choose me over everything else on this earth.  However, I realized that he wants to finish his mission; I can recognize how important his military duty is to him.  

Although it logically all makes sense, I wish my heart would follow my mind...